Tuesday, May 29, 2012

Guess What?

Salutations. :) The highlight of my day today?
I got red peekaboo highlights.
See what I did there? :> I'm hilarious. HAHA.

To be frank, I am rather dissatisfied. I imagined things quite differently.
Two things. One, I imagined them to be of a brighter, more vibrant red. And two, I imagined them to peek out more. I wanted them noticeable but I guess they're called peekaboo highlights for a reason.

Maybe I'll have them retouched or maybe I won't. But right now, I'm just beaming with heaps of happy. By far, this is about the closest I've gotten to having red streaks.

It's time for bed, I suppose.
I have driving lessons in the morning at 10am.
Then, it's to gym at 6 with Naddy.
I say that's plenty to look forward to. :D

And besides, I'm too tried to write about anything else. Haha.
Have a splendid night! ♥

Friday, May 25, 2012

Digital Scrapbook

The universe refuses to cooperate with me.
I want to start a flashmob but I can't find people gutsy enough to join. Well, there actually are a handful of people who would but I haven't a clue as to how this whole flashmob business is supposed to come about. LOL.

I want to get people dancing or doing something magnitudes more ridiculous simply cause I think it would be mighty fun. Everyone could certainly do with a little fun in their lives. :)

Project flashmob is to be set aside for another day.
I'll look into it more in-depthly.
Once I figure things out, THERE SHALL BE NO SHAME. Haha.

Another thing I want to do is to go geocaching but I highly doubt they have any good caches here in Davao. Oh limitations, you sadden me so. If I ever get to fly anywhere, I will check for available caches the first thing I get there. I'll get myself an eye-patch and be all pirate-y while I'm at it. :))

Daddy left for Manila this morning so as of right now, I'm a sad little trout.
I shall therefore get into digital scrapbooking today to keep myself busy and to keep my mind off it.

Here's a couple I've finished.

It's definitely a start. Time to work on the rest. :D
Have a wonderful Friday, everyone! ♥

Thursday, May 24, 2012

I want someone I can go to, someone I can tell my secrets to, someone who won't judge me for mistakes I've made, for the mistakes I will continue to make.
I want someone who understands, who hears, not just listens. 
I want someone who wipes my tears away.
I want someone who needs me.

I want someone who fights for me.

I want someone who loves me.

It's about time I take all these ideals of love and be them, to be the person I would want to find.

And so, let's revise that.

I will be someone who people can go to, someone who people can tell secrets to, someone who won't judge people for mistakes they done, for the mistakes they will continue to make.
I will be someone who understands, who hears, not just listens.

I will wipe tears away.
I will need.
I will fight.
I will love.

I have made this my mission once but I forgot.
Cause this little head of mine won't let me finish what I start.

It's in our selfish human nature to crave the love we want.
So much so, we forget to give it.
For it's the kind of love that the world needs and but drastically lacks.

Be the change you want to see in the world.
Have the love you want to receive.

The world cannot give love that it doesn't have.

Thursday, May 17, 2012

Words to Live By

"This is what you do. If you feel low, you stand tall. You mess up, you move on. You want to try something, try it, and if it was a stupid thing to try, you look it in the eye. There’s no turning back. You apologize if you’re sorry, but know that the nimblest, strongest hands can’t rebuild a bridge out of embers, so cut new wood. Start from scratch. You love with your whole heart. If you’re jealous, talk yourself from the ledge. If you can’t talk yourself down from the ledge, have a good time up there, looking down on the world. If you have to lie to make everything true again, lie like you mean it. If you find yourself in a cage, reach out through the bars for the key, unlock the door, and run away. If running away gets dangerous, run home. If home doesn’t mean what it used to mean, decide what home will be in the future. If your best friend says she doesn’t trust you, hold her jaw in your hand until it hurts, and make her face you. That's all it takes. If you think you love a guy, see how his hand looks in yours, that's all it takes. If you get exiled into a new land, then go discover it. And if you feel like you’re drowning, go swimming."

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Perfect Color Acuity

"Why, hi there. :D Here I sit, alone once again. I HAVE NO FRIENDS. Hahahaha. But, of course, I'm only kidding. I'm in school now, on my laptop. It has always been a choice of mine, staying away from people like this. I'm comfortable this way. I can do my own thing without having to worry about people liking me or disliking me. I don't feel as subjected to judgement as I do on most days when I'm around people. I'm doing my own thing, in my own time, at my own pace and that's how I like it.

I especially like the feeling which accompanies solitude; the feeling that I can do anything. I feel free, y'know? I feel awesome. I feel at my most capable when I'm alone.

Although, for so long now, I've always felt this void. A void that I never quite know how to fill. I blog, I paint, I make friends, I go out and have fun but there's that undeniable twang of emptiness that lingers on

I guess that's one other reason why I like being alone so much. It rationalizes the emptiness and, in spite of how helpless I otherwise am, I momentarily feel that I can do something about it."

That was an excerpt from my online diary dating back to much earlier this year.
I've been frustrated as of late, more than I care to admit. Reading through my diary, I've come to realize that I have been so for far longer that I thought.

Thus, I have decided to make good use of my time and to take action against it.

For as long as I can remember, I've always taken comfort in reason. I feel at ease when things make sense and when, and only when, I comprehend them thoroughly.

It frustrates me how ideas in my head don't add up.
It frustrates me how little of myself I can say I truly understand.
It frustrates me how I am eternally in conflict with myself.
And it frustrates me how half of the time I don't even know what I'm frustrated about.
I don't understand.

Moreover, I tend to overthink these things and, with every thought, I plummet deeper and deeper into my frustration. But I figured that if I could reason my way into frustration, I could very well reason myself out.

And so, it begins here.
I need to convince myself that not everything is meant to be understood.
I need to accept the fact that there are no definite set of rules as to how to live life right; it is defined and not sought after.

And, I need to chill and stop thinking about these things.

I thought of dedicating this post to vent out and, hopefully, properly assess my frustrations but having had gone this far in, it now feels too heavy of a topic. Let's move on along now, shall we? :)

I look a Hue Test the other day and look what I scored! :D

The test may be a tad time-consuming but if you find rearranging colors as thrilling as I do, it's a great deal of fun. :D If you're into graphic design, it would be in your best interest to give it a shot.

Within this week alone, dad, Jason and I have watched two movies. Dark Shadows last Sunday and, today, The Pirates! Band of Misfits.

Funny thing earlier this evening when we watched The Pirates! at SM, the movie had an audience of only us three. It felt too much like a private screening so, all the while, I made pretend it was. LOL.

The rest of this week promises to be rather hectic considering that we're having our final examinations. I shouldn't even be blogging right now. :))

To signal the end of summer classes, the three of us, dad, Jason and I will be spending our Sunday at D' Leonor Hotel Inland Resort. I'm psyched. :3

I've tried working with watercolor pencils in my spare time to destress.
Pictures soon to follow. :D

Friday, May 11, 2012

My Red Streak

May 10, 2012, in the wee hours of the morning. (Well, midnight-ish.)
It was one of those nights. Aaron and I were, once again, bored. LOL.

Aaron whipped out his hair products -- his wax and his gel -- and started styling his hair.
I had paint lying around in my dire attempt to fix the painting I've posted in the entry before this. I didn't know what else I could do with my hair so I painted on a streak of red across my fringe.

I've long dreamt of having a red streak.

My dream was realized that night. LOL.

Earlier today, I met up with old classmates of mine from high school. We had some sort of birthday/farewell house party. I left my box of butterscotch brownies. ): I was in a rush to leave cause I have an assignment due at midnight; I had just submitted it.

Anyhow, daddy will be arriving tomorrow evening. :D
I'm so excited I can hardly sleep.
I'm just kidding. I'm exhausted. LOL.

I hope he stays here for more than a week cause summer class is yet to end on the 19th.

A very good night to you. :D

Monday, May 7, 2012

Once Upon a Cloudy Day

I've been wanting to fly a kite but since I haven't the time to make one of my own -- all the more fly it -- I painted this instead. :D

It isn't quite how I imagined it but I like my sky very much. :3

“Writing is a form of therapy. Sometimes I wonder how all those who do not write, compose or paint can manage to escape the madness, the melancholia, the panic fear which is inherent in the human situation." - Graham Greene

Killer Crab

Do you know what I want?
I want to change somebody's life.
I want to do amazing things.

Thoughts are dangerous.
They are potentially repulsive and destructive -- sometimes, even both at the same time.
My mind's a ticking time-bomb just waiting to explode.

I think and think and think and think and when I'm not thinking, I think some more.
I need to learn how to relax.


I'm in the computer lab right now, supposedly having class. But since our teacher isn't here and the lab assistant is kind enough to let us surf till 4pm, I am blogging. Yay~

I found out about PicMonkey the other day and after much fiddling around, I ended up with this. :D KILLER CRAAAAAB! It's going to eat youuuuuu. >D


I had actually started this post a couple of days ago out of immense frustration. Now, I can barely even remember what I was frustrated about. LOL. These arbitrary fleets of emotion leave as quickly as they come -- it sometimes startles me at just how sudden.

It's 2:17pm now.
I shall head home and find a way to better deal with my thoughts.
Silly are these things we call our feelings. They can be awfully inconvenient.